not so secret messages!

i can't feel my fingers -_-
how did it become so cold?

some people try too hard..just stop.

bad news, i dont think im dressing up for halloween this year because its tomorrow (kinda) and i really have no idea what to wear.

i kinda wished that i continued dance after 9 years..cus i was just watching so you thinnk you can dance, and they're pretty amazing. too bad all the asians are always eliminated in the beginning -_- i think nigel is racist! haha just kidding

i don't understand anythang in econ.
i understand a little bit of calc..
i like art class, maybe ill drop all my academics and take 5 periods of different art, hah. life would be so fun

TOMORROW'S FRIDAY! GET CRRRUNK! WHATWHAT

by the way, i got new red glasses 8]


if you get me this, i'll be the happiest woman alive.

middle

of the week, this week is taking forever.
maybe it's cus this weekend's gonna be fucking fun.
classes suck, i stall too much on writing in class essays because all i do is eat and pass notes and make ugly faces at people.. oh well. on the bright side, i made a shitload of bracelets today! so i don't need to take any from other people now.

and i found out that this one store in a mall is now hiring. i dont wanna tell you guys on here because you guys might apply for it too and i'll be rejected..for the 7th time. so i'll tell you..if i get hired! then you guys can visit me hehe

i really like cheese. just saying.

i'm gonna go shower really quick and come back in a bit.
or else my dad is gonna turn off the hot water like he does sometimes >:[

i want my hair to be super long. maybe i should put miracle grow...HAHAHA just kidding, i don't think that'll work. but yeah, i just never had really really long hair and i wanna see what it looks like! and today, i love how i've been really connecting with people. when they say something, i basically say the same thing without planning it ahead to do that, great minds think alike!

dead tired. im gonna sleep. i need luck for calc because that class is fucking hard.

i just want you to know

that i miss you.
a few days ago I was at target, and i saw hanes tshirts in the men section and remember how theyre wrapped 3 shirts in one plastic bag..well, puente has a ghetto target so alot of bags were ripped open. HEHE and i remember how I had a bigger bag than you did, and you know ;] oh and i saw hookah set in a smoke shop on my way home from school. remember when we were all like WTF HOW ARENT WE DOING IT RIGHT. "because youre not inhaling.." HAHAHA oh yeah, and remember YOUR winter formal and you had to take awkward pics and me and trissie were your paparazzi and then we got kicked outta the dressing room because apparently, we're not supposed to take pictures. and you can't forget kevin's ahem car, and our aa car =) and we better not forget MY prom night -_- ohloordd. you bite people, girl talks, bpchamps, miss i have to be home at 11 even tho i coulda stayed out later, enough said.

hope you're doing well!

today was really really cold. thank god i listened to weatherbug or else i woulda freezed my ass offf. every class makes me wanna sleep, i love early release days. no rubios taco tuesdays today cus rosalyn turned the wrong way =( stupid short lunches, they should make it more than an hr long than everybody would be happy. but it really doesnt affect me anyways cus i dont have 5th and 6th after lunch so I can take however long i wanna eat. next tuesday, we better eat yummy fish tacos!

so i love days where i barely get any homework. caught up on gossip girrl and a buncha other tv shows, and it took me an hour and a few minutes to make 5 bracelets -_- its because i have butterfingery fingers and everytime im tryna tie the shit, it slips outta my hands and beads fly everywhere -_-

its 6;57 and i have nothing to do.
i guess ima start editting my 2 college essays now..
oh btw, i found out today that I just want you to know is by Backstreet boys!
good song.

it's coming.

it's a few days before halloween and I still don't know what to be.
so, i sorta hate it when drivers know that you're already driving at a faster pace than them, and they cut right in front of you from a right turn. it pisses me off so fucking much because then i just wanna tailgate and honk at them and give them my second favorite finger.

at lunch, i super craved chipotle and i realized that i should save up money because each burrito/burrito bowl/tacos is like $6. i could make my own daaang burritos for much cheaper!

and im still stressing over a dilemma and it sucks big fat dick :[
okay, i needa get maah shit together because this weekend's gonna be goood and i have to finish my uc essays and bio shit first!

tomorrow is gonna be 74 degrees, says weatherbug.

control.

i woke up at 2 PM today. fucking greatest feeling ever.

i think i need to control my anger more so that i don't say things that hurt people. my anger gets so outta control it's ridiculous. all i focus on when im angry, is to make the other person angry as well. but i'm gonna try to change that, because i don't want to be an asshole/bitch/whatever.

today was a great day actually, despite all the drama and long talks.
double dated with andy and noelle, and carved out cute pumpkins! mines sucked because all of my inside wasn't clean and it was all icky. but i love the smell of the inside of a pumpkin; i don't get what's wrong witchu guys who don't like it! it's refreshing and relaxing.
hot cheeto fries are really good, they taste even better when you're carving pumpkins!

ok, i'll edit later bcause i'm sorta tirrred now. bye, good day<3

i see party people. THEY'RE EVERYWHERE

i thought today wasn't gonna be all that great, but it was good.
-bio, we are gonna grow an onion!
-lunch, went to see the "fight"
-finally bought my monster ticket! this better be funner than edc
-mcchickens = super cheap and good, but not fulfilling. it's too less food.
-monica's house, i love you. thanks for being my sanctuary, kind of.
-birch with lei, then made her drive for football game
-troy vs sunnyhills. the refs were being really gay! >:[
but we won nevertheless.

god, i think some people need an attitude change. it was such a coincidence that two days ago, we were just talking about this specific person. and then today, she's givin me all attitude and shit. i mean, we're friends and i like you and all, but you should get an attitude check or something before it's too late. you act like you're oh so great and everybody just loves to follow whatever you do. reality check, the world doesn't revolve around you.

i'm gonna sleep till noon tomorrow!
haven't done that in a week.

do it like i love it

so my arms were never this unevenly tanned,
but after sitting in the parking lot for an hour in the sun behind my car, my driver's arm is way darker than my right arm. i wish i had deep thoughts to put on here, but right now my mind is sorta spacing out because of too much calculus in my head.

I had a good catching up today with people I haven't seen forever. people who i have slipped with, sorry but I've tried to become close with you again but it just seems to always never work. we'd tell each other "I'll update you everything later!" but then we just end up not doing so until a few months later. it sucks balls, really.

i did many new things today!
i planted my pea plant seeds, and cross my fingers they'll grow.
i killed a centipede for the first time, ever. I feel bad.
and i ate rosemary chicken and thought outside the box

bill murray!

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."
-Bob Marley

his songs are amazing.
and I'm currently addicted to
gotta be somebody - nickelback

good night.
senior year is pretty chill, I have barely any tests.
but ima knock on wood, just in case they all
come at me next week.

everything's so easy

NOT.
everythings so fucking hard.
school, im fucking failing cus i think i just dont give a fuck that much anymore.
apps, i have no fucking motivation to anything because im always the wait till deadline kinda person.
friendships, it's fucking hard to keep em if so many people break my trust in one way or the other.
someone one told me that "never trust anybody but yourself," because if you put all your trust in someone, you're gonna get fucking hurt. real fucking bad.

sorry im not optimistic like the fucking weather nowadays
usually i am, but what is there to be fucking optmistic about.
when everything's fucking complicated.

i wanna just get outta here. away from everything for like a few days. or weeks. or months.
colorado or north dakota seems like a fucking great place to go
cus i can sit in the fucking grass allday errday and just think my thoughts through.
fuck liars.
fuck haters.
fuck bitches.

good bye.

release me.

zombieland was pretty funny
tallahasee zombieslayer is my hero.
the main guy looked exactly like michael serrah
..but he wasnt
well, puente is now unghettofied.
they have chipotle and jamba and red mango now
college apps suck.
i had an essay, and it sounded like shit when i read it
so then now i have no essays.
i didnt even know uc's opened online two days ago..
i feel so dumb and behind.

but october is gonna be fun. i feel it.