LIGHTS

i want some glowsticks, haa
RUBIO'S FISH TACOS = AMAZING.

who says

i can't get stoned
turn off the lights and the telephone
me in my house alone

my favorite new john mayer's song!
this weekend was supposed to be dedicated to submitting uc apps..
but, that didn't happen.

saturday - tried writing my second uc essay, i failed miserably.
hungout with treesay, i swear we can talk forever.
and even though you failed your test 3 times, you're a good driver!
im not lying. del taco, yogurtland, we waste too much $ on food.
but yeah, yearbooking looking AHAHAHHAHA fun shit.

sunday - FINALLY for the first time ever, woke up early enough to get breakfast burritos with eric from pepe's! i realized that cheese and eggs is a really nasty combination IF you have too much of it at once and i almost threw up. went to church with him and it was a really cool church, it had tvs and shit and it was actaully pretty interesting. king's garden. eric's favorite chinese restaurant that he goes to every single week, that fatass. and uh did college apps and is almost done with my second essay!

trust.

team jacob.

yeah, new moon was pretty good.

but back to the point.
i see right through your bullshit.
you play me.
imma play you.
ive been in this game before.
it isn't hard for a person like me.
i know it. you know it.


YAY im going down to walnut today!
finally, after what? 92839283 years?
just kidding. only 3 months. but it feels like so long ago.

work it offf

my blogs are always so fucking boring...
because every one of em has a mentioning of college apps.
damn, this weekend i'm so gonna finish all my shit
because i'm tired of sayinng everyday that i would just do it tmrw.

for some reason, i miss May of this year.
i miss getting dropped off at walnut ....

at wrong houses ROFL and then trying hard
to find rides back to my house over
the ghetto mountain HAAHHAHAA

ive decided not to hate people anymore,
cos i dont wanna waste time doing that!

k yeah, Tomorrow's finally friday
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

ILL FINISH UC APPS THIS WEEKEND

ILL FINISH UC APPS THIS WEEKEND
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my fingers are really cold, but my penguin fuzzy mittens and toe socks are keeping em warm! it's already wednesday yaaay. this week passed by fast.
monday- dancing with the staff! i didnt now some teachers dance good!
tuesday- dkfjkdf fuck me, bio test
today- nothing much happened. got my favorite carribean passion, and ate some of eric's fried rice...made with only rice and spam. HAAH one of a kind!

ugh, i hate how errday my parents ask me if i submitted my uc apps yet. it makes me feel bad that I haven't even written my second essay yet, or editted my first one. but whatever, i'm so done with eerrthhang i just wanna chilll.

goddamn.

saturday was pretty good.
woke up, did college apps.

i love nighttime!
went to kevin's party
it was really chill
then went to a ghetto party in apartments and it was so
fucking funny when the people were jerking to youre a jerk
HAHA but i liked the glowsticks. shoulda took some before
we left! and then, just went back to chill at kevins
i suck at bp now, gotta practice
good night, until eric was taking me home at 3ish?
shit. fuck, im so sorry.

today's sunday. i didn't do any homework yet.
and my mom keeps bugging me about uc apps because
i haven't even written my second essay yet.
but, im gonna chill today.
bye! have a good day the weather's nice

just kidding.

i hate people who don't understand the meaning of just kidding.
they abuse it.
when these kinda people say just kidding,
they don't mean the just kidding.
they actually meant whatever insult they said.
and it's dumb how they say just kidding.

i feel winter breeze

from all my four years of highschool, today was the earliest that ive ever been school. ever. i got there at 5:55 in the morning and i have NEVER gotten a parking spot in the last row that was super close! i feel accomplished. but i had to take the econ test and that wasn't fun! at least my teacher knows my name now...ha, i'm such a nerd 8)

good day.
english is actually pretty fun ha
lunch, took melody to take out shit from mah car hehe
and then snl lunch date<3 i realized, that we always go to burger king.
and we always order the same things.
me - chicken fries shits
lei & noelle - some burger + fries
but it's alright, i like our routine. and 10 minute updates.
and camera whoring. we never have too many pictures!

i came home, and i actually did fucking college apps. i finally submitted uop's and i feeel good nananana! because it wasn't a calstate one!

oh yeah, there was a fucking creep that rang my doorbell. and i was kinda scared cos i was home alone and then i went to the door to check, and like, i'm pretty sure usually people don't do this but SUDDENLY THAT GUY LIKE PUT HIS FACE ON THE GLASS AND STARTED LOOKING IN AND AROUND. i did my creep move and slid to the side of the door so he wouldnt see me. but it was fuckinfucking scary. i almost peed in my pants.

then, WENT SHOPPING WITH LEI.
-jamba juice is sososo good.
-dippindots.
-new york cheesecake from baskin robbins is actually sour and disgusting.
-FIVE FINGERS
-we get fucking distracted too easily..
-box was SO FUCKING CONFUSING and scary.
-but, james marsden has a hundred dolla smile! and dimples
-CREEP VANS
-missing parking spaces, then reversing so fassst!

im scared of santa now..because of what happened in the movie.
>:[ but neverthless,
I LIKE WINTER.

good shit

i fucking shouldn't have ditched 2nd period -_-
out of all the days that the teacher takes roll,
she just has to take it the day i'm not there!

i really like my new camera. it's like my
new baby precious thing that i take care of!

and im finally gonna submit my uop application in a few minutes,
I'M EXCITED

11/11

i didn't make a wish in the morning, because i was sleeping ;(
and im probably not gonna make a wish later, because i WILL be sleeping!

<3

i should be a chauffer..

NAWWWWWWWT.
so i drove a shitload today.
to school, from school to home,
from home to cerritos, to cerritos mall,
then took an accidental detour to norwalk,
there were many taqueria shops!
norwalk to cerritos, cerritos to home,
home to melody's house, to cvs,
to gas station, to jay's house,
back to melody's house, then finally
home sweeet home now!

eventful/chill night.
-little kids running towards us..WHAT IF THEY ARE HAHALOL
-wrong car. wrong guys.
-stupid patrol cars with ugly mirrors.
-pretty pretty pretty purple nail polish.
-daniel's face when he's texting..AHAHA
-i like melmel heeehee
-etc.

sweet dreams bye!
i love middle of the week holidays.


by the way, hot couple

bittersweet.

Nobody gets a soul mate. it don't happen.
all you're going to get in life, if you're lucky, is a mate.
somebody to fuck and go to the movies with.
that's all relationships are--fucking and eating.
and the longer you're with someone, there's
more eating and less fucking.
-Chris Rock


so it's this, or that.

my neck, my back

saturday - woke up early for once and tried to do college apps and shit. went to noelle's house at 1 to get ready (the earliest i've ever started getting ready for a dance -_-) i show up already in my dress, and noelle and lei weren't even fucking halfway done even though she was there at like 11, LOL fail. im never tryna put on fake lashes anymore cos that shit took at least 15-30 minutes and in the end, i couldnt even stick that shit on my eyelid. our appt for pictures were at 3, but then we took so fucking long trying to get ready and we got there around 4;15. fucking gps told us to go to cerritos town center instead of cerritos mall, so we got lost and wasted time too. then me and noelle walked to where the old say cheese was at, across from taco bell, and apparently it moved and shit so we were like, fuck. we needa walk more than halfway across the whole mall again. fuck heels! took pictures, blah blah blah.
-me and katherine have too much fun haaa
-"where are you guys going all dressed up?" "....a party." WE'RE SO SMART.
-yardhouse was good. grilled cheese and tomato basil sauce = mouthgasm.
-got to hc at 9 haa so late. but the dj sucked cos he was playing random ass shit in the middle that wasn't even fun to dance to. but yea, why do people go to homecoming to play cards? daafuck. okay, it was a pretty good last hc =)

i need a salonpas!
and econ homework time. fmlfml

if you aint go no monay

take your broke asss home.
homecoming rally was pretty funny..but sad at the same time.
colorguard finally performed, whaaat? random. but they weren't bad actually. lunch with snl was fun, i fucking love chipotle, noelle's legal and good driving skills, and failed pictures.

thanks rosalyn for being my moral support, you know what im sayinng.
guppy's with rosalyn katherine sheila cathy johanna was good. fucking love beef ramen stew or beef stew ramen, whatever the fuck it's called.

my camera of 4 years failed me today. so sad.
sorry the plan didn't work out today.. but it'll be fucking great when we follow through with it sooon. very soon. haahahahaha, i dont wanna go to hell.

i thought you were my friend, ha. guess nawt


my heaven.

early sleep tonight!

mind your own beeeezwax

this is really general, and specific at the same time. but some people needa learn to stay outta other people's fucking business when it doesn't even involve them. you think that you're 'helping' and shit, but no, this problem doesn't have your name on it so fuck off. live your own life, and stay outta other people's.
lately, i've been pretty moody and i'm sorry for any of you guys who had to deal with it. it was honestly because of this past weekend, and i realized that i'm not gonna make the same mistake again. alla this spells trouble and i can't risk my senior year right now to get in any shit. i already have enough stuff to deal with, and i don't need these shitty moods/other shit to add on to my burden.

oh, everything would be so much easier if life had a erase/rewind button.

2manydjs

school's a bust, except break and lunch and passing periods.
and i'm not even excited for hc this weekend for some reason.
i think it's because of what happened at monster,
and i realized that i shouldn't get my hopes so high, or else if it gets crushed (not saying that it will, cross maah fingers), it'll be a bust two weekends in a row and i'm most definately not down for that!

i think i needa focus more. discipline.
sucks that i always need someone to push/motivate me,
but i know i can do this! alright, after this weekend,
no more going out. till i'm done with uop, uc, and usc essays.
my jaw hurts.

october's gone

friday - boring school day. nothing really happened.
at night, met up with eric nicole kyle cameron noelle and andy
from what i remember;
-nicole was telling me shit i didnt understand about the moon
-passion fruit smirnoff smells really good
-we laid in the sand like lovers alot
-we fell off the swings
-we fell down the slide
-we fall off alot of things..
-we got made fun of when we started jerking LOL
-kyle and eric cheated on us..with each other. fags
this night was pretty good and relaxing. thank god for a break from school

saturday - couldn't wait for monster in the morning,
seriously i've been waiting to have fun on this day since edc and was hoping that monster would be way better than edc, just because of the people i went with.
it was the worst night ever. security guards suck, parking fees suck, fat black woman in a yellow jacket sucked, there weren't even lines to go in, there were just mosh pits. everything just basically went wrong.


i have bad memory now. fuck.

not so secret messages!

i can't feel my fingers -_-
how did it become so cold?

some people try too hard..just stop.

bad news, i dont think im dressing up for halloween this year because its tomorrow (kinda) and i really have no idea what to wear.

i kinda wished that i continued dance after 9 years..cus i was just watching so you thinnk you can dance, and they're pretty amazing. too bad all the asians are always eliminated in the beginning -_- i think nigel is racist! haha just kidding

i don't understand anythang in econ.
i understand a little bit of calc..
i like art class, maybe ill drop all my academics and take 5 periods of different art, hah. life would be so fun

TOMORROW'S FRIDAY! GET CRRRUNK! WHATWHAT

by the way, i got new red glasses 8]


if you get me this, i'll be the happiest woman alive.

middle

of the week, this week is taking forever.
maybe it's cus this weekend's gonna be fucking fun.
classes suck, i stall too much on writing in class essays because all i do is eat and pass notes and make ugly faces at people.. oh well. on the bright side, i made a shitload of bracelets today! so i don't need to take any from other people now.

and i found out that this one store in a mall is now hiring. i dont wanna tell you guys on here because you guys might apply for it too and i'll be rejected..for the 7th time. so i'll tell you..if i get hired! then you guys can visit me hehe

i really like cheese. just saying.

i'm gonna go shower really quick and come back in a bit.
or else my dad is gonna turn off the hot water like he does sometimes >:[

i want my hair to be super long. maybe i should put miracle grow...HAHAHA just kidding, i don't think that'll work. but yeah, i just never had really really long hair and i wanna see what it looks like! and today, i love how i've been really connecting with people. when they say something, i basically say the same thing without planning it ahead to do that, great minds think alike!

dead tired. im gonna sleep. i need luck for calc because that class is fucking hard.

i just want you to know

that i miss you.
a few days ago I was at target, and i saw hanes tshirts in the men section and remember how theyre wrapped 3 shirts in one plastic bag..well, puente has a ghetto target so alot of bags were ripped open. HEHE and i remember how I had a bigger bag than you did, and you know ;] oh and i saw hookah set in a smoke shop on my way home from school. remember when we were all like WTF HOW ARENT WE DOING IT RIGHT. "because youre not inhaling.." HAHAHA oh yeah, and remember YOUR winter formal and you had to take awkward pics and me and trissie were your paparazzi and then we got kicked outta the dressing room because apparently, we're not supposed to take pictures. and you can't forget kevin's ahem car, and our aa car =) and we better not forget MY prom night -_- ohloordd. you bite people, girl talks, bpchamps, miss i have to be home at 11 even tho i coulda stayed out later, enough said.

hope you're doing well!

today was really really cold. thank god i listened to weatherbug or else i woulda freezed my ass offf. every class makes me wanna sleep, i love early release days. no rubios taco tuesdays today cus rosalyn turned the wrong way =( stupid short lunches, they should make it more than an hr long than everybody would be happy. but it really doesnt affect me anyways cus i dont have 5th and 6th after lunch so I can take however long i wanna eat. next tuesday, we better eat yummy fish tacos!

so i love days where i barely get any homework. caught up on gossip girrl and a buncha other tv shows, and it took me an hour and a few minutes to make 5 bracelets -_- its because i have butterfingery fingers and everytime im tryna tie the shit, it slips outta my hands and beads fly everywhere -_-

its 6;57 and i have nothing to do.
i guess ima start editting my 2 college essays now..
oh btw, i found out today that I just want you to know is by Backstreet boys!
good song.

it's coming.

it's a few days before halloween and I still don't know what to be.
so, i sorta hate it when drivers know that you're already driving at a faster pace than them, and they cut right in front of you from a right turn. it pisses me off so fucking much because then i just wanna tailgate and honk at them and give them my second favorite finger.

at lunch, i super craved chipotle and i realized that i should save up money because each burrito/burrito bowl/tacos is like $6. i could make my own daaang burritos for much cheaper!

and im still stressing over a dilemma and it sucks big fat dick :[
okay, i needa get maah shit together because this weekend's gonna be goood and i have to finish my uc essays and bio shit first!

tomorrow is gonna be 74 degrees, says weatherbug.

control.

i woke up at 2 PM today. fucking greatest feeling ever.

i think i need to control my anger more so that i don't say things that hurt people. my anger gets so outta control it's ridiculous. all i focus on when im angry, is to make the other person angry as well. but i'm gonna try to change that, because i don't want to be an asshole/bitch/whatever.

today was a great day actually, despite all the drama and long talks.
double dated with andy and noelle, and carved out cute pumpkins! mines sucked because all of my inside wasn't clean and it was all icky. but i love the smell of the inside of a pumpkin; i don't get what's wrong witchu guys who don't like it! it's refreshing and relaxing.
hot cheeto fries are really good, they taste even better when you're carving pumpkins!

ok, i'll edit later bcause i'm sorta tirrred now. bye, good day<3

i see party people. THEY'RE EVERYWHERE

i thought today wasn't gonna be all that great, but it was good.
-bio, we are gonna grow an onion!
-lunch, went to see the "fight"
-finally bought my monster ticket! this better be funner than edc
-mcchickens = super cheap and good, but not fulfilling. it's too less food.
-monica's house, i love you. thanks for being my sanctuary, kind of.
-birch with lei, then made her drive for football game
-troy vs sunnyhills. the refs were being really gay! >:[
but we won nevertheless.

god, i think some people need an attitude change. it was such a coincidence that two days ago, we were just talking about this specific person. and then today, she's givin me all attitude and shit. i mean, we're friends and i like you and all, but you should get an attitude check or something before it's too late. you act like you're oh so great and everybody just loves to follow whatever you do. reality check, the world doesn't revolve around you.

i'm gonna sleep till noon tomorrow!
haven't done that in a week.

do it like i love it

so my arms were never this unevenly tanned,
but after sitting in the parking lot for an hour in the sun behind my car, my driver's arm is way darker than my right arm. i wish i had deep thoughts to put on here, but right now my mind is sorta spacing out because of too much calculus in my head.

I had a good catching up today with people I haven't seen forever. people who i have slipped with, sorry but I've tried to become close with you again but it just seems to always never work. we'd tell each other "I'll update you everything later!" but then we just end up not doing so until a few months later. it sucks balls, really.

i did many new things today!
i planted my pea plant seeds, and cross my fingers they'll grow.
i killed a centipede for the first time, ever. I feel bad.
and i ate rosemary chicken and thought outside the box

bill murray!

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."
-Bob Marley

his songs are amazing.
and I'm currently addicted to
gotta be somebody - nickelback

good night.
senior year is pretty chill, I have barely any tests.
but ima knock on wood, just in case they all
come at me next week.

everything's so easy

NOT.
everythings so fucking hard.
school, im fucking failing cus i think i just dont give a fuck that much anymore.
apps, i have no fucking motivation to anything because im always the wait till deadline kinda person.
friendships, it's fucking hard to keep em if so many people break my trust in one way or the other.
someone one told me that "never trust anybody but yourself," because if you put all your trust in someone, you're gonna get fucking hurt. real fucking bad.

sorry im not optimistic like the fucking weather nowadays
usually i am, but what is there to be fucking optmistic about.
when everything's fucking complicated.

i wanna just get outta here. away from everything for like a few days. or weeks. or months.
colorado or north dakota seems like a fucking great place to go
cus i can sit in the fucking grass allday errday and just think my thoughts through.
fuck liars.
fuck haters.
fuck bitches.

good bye.

release me.

zombieland was pretty funny
tallahasee zombieslayer is my hero.
the main guy looked exactly like michael serrah
..but he wasnt
well, puente is now unghettofied.
they have chipotle and jamba and red mango now
college apps suck.
i had an essay, and it sounded like shit when i read it
so then now i have no essays.
i didnt even know uc's opened online two days ago..
i feel so dumb and behind.

but october is gonna be fun. i feel it.